It's been a very long time since I last wrote a blog spot and I must say it's been a few very busy and weird months! I've been super busy with school, I've had some health related family issues and to be honest I didn't feel like sharing.
Do you know this feeling that you've had things piling up and you are patient and hard working and go through everything stoically and then suddenly your head feels like it's being pressed by a heavy object and you feel that every little thought that's more complex sets it on fire? You can't think anymore, you can't analyze or find solutions, you do the bare minimum just to get through the day. Well, I felt like that for a couple of months, then felt better and now I'm at a point where I just need, I mean...NEED to relax, let my hair down, think of nothing but butterflies, beaches and bunnies. Or whatever is fluffy, pink, shallow and makes people smile.
I need holidays!
I want to wake up without the stress of being late or not having personal time.
I want to feel lightweight and carefree.
I want to-seriously now-not talk-like with an actual voice-to anyone for a few days. #hermit_with_a_laptop
I want to take care of ME and pamper me.
I want a serious-oh my god I'm now broke-shopping spree
I want to only use my colorful pens for drawing and not grading.
Don't get me wrong...I a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y love my students! I love teaching them, seeing them ,hearing them laugh, seeing them progress more or a little, slow or fast every day. What I'm done with is everything else surrounding teaching this year. I'm done with _itchy bosses, absurd parents with a teacher syndrome, delayed salaries and all that jazz!!!
I don't know if anyone else feels that way, ever or sometimes, maybe I'm just a tired teacher who had a bad school year. But if there's more of me out there, feeling drained, tired...please do let me know! I need the solidarity :)